Day 7

Well, I’m one week smoke-free and things are going pretty well. I’m disgusted by the way that cigarette smoke smells and I can IMMEDIATELY smell when someone has recently lit a cigarette or has just come in from outdoors that smoked one. As a matter of fact, I went over to my neighbor’s house for just about an hour yesterday. I wanted to chit-chat with her, find out when she was due and what the gender of her baby is. It’s hiding. LOL Anyway, so I walked back into my house and I was like, “Who’s been smoking in here?” Haha! That was me a little under a week ago. The smell seems to have disappated a little bit, as it doesn’t smell as bad as it did yesterday. Luckily, we’ll have a new house and it won’t smell like smoke after we move. That’s a good thing 🙂

Rob and I went to a Hail and Farewell tonight. Mandatory fun. yeh! Yeah, not too much fun, but a couple of good laughs were had. I was laughing so hard, I started crying! HAHAHAHA. I’ve got an appointment tomorrow to see if I have Mono. yeh. Other than that, nothing is going on here. Oh, the good news…I got one of my photos put on the front page of the Herald Union from the Welcome Home Ceremony for one of the units that came back from war! What’s even cooler is that the local German paper got ahold of my pictures and published a few of them, too! Ute, my colleague, has a copy of the paper for me to keep as a soveniour. I will put it in my portfolio. 🙂 Well, nothing else to really talk about. You can check out the photo here. Thanks for reading and have a great day! 🙂

Well, I’m one week smoke-free and things are going pretty well. I’m disgusted by the way that cigarette smoke smells and I can IMMEDIATELY smell when someone has recently lit a cigarette or has just come in from outdoors that smoked one. As a matter of fact, I went over to my neighbor’s house for just about an hour yesterday. I wanted to chit-chat with her, find out when she was due and what the gender of her baby is. It’s hiding. LOL Anyway, so I walked back into my house and I was like, “Who’s been smoking in here?” Haha! That was me a little under a week ago. The smell seems to have disappated a little bit, as it doesn’t smell as bad as it did yesterday. Luckily, we’ll have a new house and it won’t smell like smoke after we move. That’s a good thing 🙂

Rob and I went to a Hail and Farewell tonight. Mandatory fun. yeh! Yeah, not too much fun, but a couple of good laughs were had. I was laughing so hard, I started crying! HAHAHAHA. I’ve got an appointment tomorrow to see if I have Mono. yeh. Other than that, nothing is going on here. Oh, the good news…I got one of my photos put on the front page of the Herald Union from the Welcome Home Ceremony for one of the units that came back from war! What’s even cooler is that the local German paper got ahold of my pictures and published a few of them, too! Ute, my colleague, has a copy of the paper for me to keep as a soveniour. I will put it in my portfolio. 🙂 Well, nothing else to really talk about. You can check out the photo here. Thanks for reading and have a great day! 🙂

Day 6

Well, I’ve made it through day 6 and it was an easy feat. Rob and I are both sick as can be. Rob went to the doctor’s office today and they think he’s got mono. I pretty much have all the symptoms of it, too. I’ve never had it before, but Rob has. He’s gonna find out tomorrow and I probably should go have my blood drawn and checked to see if I have it. I feel like crap. It almost feels like the flu…achy muscles and headache, no appetite and I feel incredibly tired. I slept okay last night and I was up at 7 with Rob and when he left, I fell asleep again on the couch and I slept until 11. We went to bed at 8:30 and the phone rang and so I woke up. That’s the only reason I’m on the computer. Thought I should give you guys an update. I don’t know, this is awful. Well, I can barely hold my eyelids open anymore, so I’m going to bid you a goodnight. Sleep tight and don’t let the bed bugs bite.

TTFN

Day 4

It’s been a good day. I’ve wanted a few cigarettes, but I’ve fought the urge and I won! I’m doing this for our soon to be baby (the one that only exists in God’s eye right now!) Rob and I are getting really excited to make a baby! This is the reason that I continue fighting the cravings.

Casey had an Episodic Falling seizure again today. He’s had several since we’ve had him and the first couple of times that he had them, we thought that it was just a fluke. He had another one at Christmas time while we were at the Tree Lighting Ceremony. We hadn’t seen any in a while and we were thinking that it might be okay to breed him. I don’t think so. I would hate to pass this on. It doesn’t seem real harmful to him. He just get really stiff and shaky. This episode lasted a little more than 5 minutes. Rob and I held him. Rob said he was really scared. I was calm. I just pet him and said it was going to be okay. Rob said that if he wasn’t so scared for Casey, he would have thought it was funny how Casey was slipping all over the hard-wood floor. I didn’t think it was funny, I just thought he was playing. He must have over-stimulated himself. Poor Casey. I’m having him neutered when we get to K-Town after he’s a year old. I want him to have all the male hormones etc…

Rob has got the flu and he hardly ate dinner tonight. He went to bed early and I am getting ready to go to bed shortly myself. I don’t feel especially tired, but I know that I need to keep myself on schedule.

I really do appreciate my readers and I just want to say thanks for reading! Have a great day and we’ll talk soon!

Day 3

Today was not as hard as it was a year ago. Day three all I could think about was smoking and today…well, I’ve thought about it, but it didn’t bother me much today. As a matter of fact, Rob took me to Burger King for dinner today and there were a couple of people there that were smoking. I had to hold my breath as we walked by. The smell was just too much for me. It was almost naseating. So, another day down. Woohoo!

Well, thanks for reading. TTFN

Day 2

God’s sending His mercies to me as I go through this day. Yesterday night I was in actual physical pain. As if someone had kicked me in the chest and I lost my breath. It was almost like a panic attack, but much worse. I was walking and I my eyes started to well up. I just prayed that God would take the pain away. He dried my tears and helped me deal with the pain. The pain DIDN’T go away. He just helped me get through it. I felt more relaxed afterwards and then I went bowling. I bowled a 164, 108 and 154. My team members said that I’m not allowed to smoke anymore! Haha!

Anyway, I guess I better go. There’s warm pizza and a movie waiting for me!

Thanks for reading.

Day 1–again!

Well, I did it again. Feeling alright. Got lots of prayers. Got a really good reason to quit. Little stressed. Doing it for Rob and I’s (hopefully) soon to be conceived child and it’s totally worth it. After meals are the worst times for me. I just had a sandwich. It was good, but the after-meal cigarette signals the end of a meal. I am typing this blog instead of smoking. I flushed the 3 cigarettes that I had left down the toilet last night. I got home late and didn’t get to bed until like 3 am. I was working on the pictures from the Welcome Home Ceremony for the unit that just came back from Iraq yesterday! I got the pictures turned in this morning and there is a possibility that one or two of my pictures might get featured in the Stars and Stripes–that’s the local newspaper here in Germany! I’m really excited. I think I am finally coming into my own when it comes to photography. It only took me 7,000 pictures to get there…actually probably quite a few more because I’ve been into photography for quite sometime now. LOL

Casey is doing well. He found is Foosball and has wanted to play catch for a while. Need to get stuff done around here and I have bowling tonight. Wish me luck. I usually smoke between games. Hopefully, I don’t feel the urge. I am quitting for my baby. That’s what I have to keep telling myself. It’s worth it. It’s just the first week that is uncomfortable. Once I get past this part, in the 2nd week, I’ll be completely disgusted by the mere smell. Or at least that’s how it was when I quit in May of 2006. Must go get some grape soda and do a few crochet stitches before I get the dishes done.

Talk to you soon. Thanks for all the prayers and the wonderful support that you’re all showing me!

TTFN

Looking at Christ in a new way

I started my new Bible study today. It’s called “Falling in Love with Jesus” and it’s teaching us to start looking at Jesus as our Bride-Groom, instead of a Father. It’s interesting though, because I’ve always looked at God as a Daddy. I actually said something interesting, and a bit funny. If you’ve ever watched the Simpson’s, this will make perfect sense. We are looking at God and His wonderful love. Often, I ask Rob why he loves me. He always says, “I don’t know. I just do.” Grrr and that’s not enough….doesn’t he love my cute feet, or my long legs? And I sort of test God and ask Him, “Well, if you loved me, you would…X, Y, or Z” And then, I related it to Homer Simpson. He’s on his knees by the bed, praying. There’s this strawberry frosted donut with sprinkles on it. As he closes his prayer, he says, “And if you want me to eat this donut, send no sign…”pause pause pause. “Thy will be done.” and he gobbles up the donut in one bite.

Sometimes, I test God in the same way. But, usually I ask Him to send a superficial sign, like make the candle burn out or make a light flash. I’m constantly looking for the sign that God heard my prayer–or that He loves me. I know he can MAKE all those things happen, but He doesn’t have to show me through those ways–oh no, He’s much more subtle than that! After all, He wants to see me in action. I shouldn’t have to test God’s love for me…in fact, I shouldn’t be testing Rob’s love for me, either. God, why do you love me? “I don’t know, I just do. Why do you love Me?”