Looking at Christ in a new way

I started my new Bible study today. It’s called “Falling in Love with Jesus” and it’s teaching us to start looking at Jesus as our Bride-Groom, instead of a Father. It’s interesting though, because I’ve always looked at God as a Daddy. I actually said something interesting, and a bit funny. If you’ve ever watched the Simpson’s, this will make perfect sense. We are looking at God and His wonderful love. Often, I ask Rob why he loves me. He always says, “I don’t know. I just do.” Grrr and that’s not enough….doesn’t he love my cute feet, or my long legs? And I sort of test God and ask Him, “Well, if you loved me, you would…X, Y, or Z” And then, I related it to Homer Simpson. He’s on his knees by the bed, praying. There’s this strawberry frosted donut with sprinkles on it. As he closes his prayer, he says, “And if you want me to eat this donut, send no sign…”pause pause pause. “Thy will be done.” and he gobbles up the donut in one bite.

Sometimes, I test God in the same way. But, usually I ask Him to send a superficial sign, like make the candle burn out or make a light flash. I’m constantly looking for the sign that God heard my prayer–or that He loves me. I know he can MAKE all those things happen, but He doesn’t have to show me through those ways–oh no, He’s much more subtle than that! After all, He wants to see me in action. I shouldn’t have to test God’s love for me…in fact, I shouldn’t be testing Rob’s love for me, either. God, why do you love me? “I don’t know, I just do. Why do you love Me?”

whatever!

Well, today, I actually tried to get into a routine and I was up at 9 am. I was up for a couple of hours and I feel asleep on the couch watching TV. I only slept for a couple of hours when the phone rang. Anyway, it’s just been a boring day. I don’t think I want to watch anymore TV right now. I want to read, but the only thing I have to read is Archie Comics. I might go do that. Take a nice warm bath and read. Anyway, nothing else going on.

I know that Rob and I are moving to Kaiserslautern in April. That was my choice. I didn’t want to wait. I just want to move already. I know I’m lucky because there are so many other people that are ready to move, too.

Well, I guess I’m gonna run for now. Have a good day and TTFN!

Internet Line has been down

Well, I’ve wanted to blog for a couple of days now, but my Internet line has been down for some really weird reason. Telekom had to come by today to look at my modem and make sure that it was okay. The funny thing is, I knew that there was something external wrong and apparently, they fixed the line because I’m up and running again. I’ve been going crazy without my DSL! It’s so funny because I didn’t start using the Internet until around 1993 or 1994 and life was just fine without it…

Same goes with the cell phone. As much as I embrace technology, you would think that I would be the first one out buying a phone. I had a cell phone when I was married to Ian, but the only reason I had one was because he was tape recording my telephone conversations and part of our reconciliation deal was that I would get a cell phone because he couldn’t tap it. I bought it in 1996 and I had it about six months and I thought he had reformed and our marriage was getting better. Not so. Anyway, when I left him, my dad had talked me into getting a cell phone, so I did. Now, I can’t imagine a life or a world without them. I’m actually looking at buying a new cell phone and Rob groans at this prospect, but he knows stuff like that makes me happy. 😉 Anyway…

We’re really excited about February! We’re gonna try for a baby! Yeah! We’re so excited! We were discussing baby names yesterday. I’m not telling! I’ve made that mistake before and someone stole my name and I won’t make that mistake again. Suffice it to say, they’re strong traditional German names.

Casey was so depressed the first day that Rob was gone. All he did was sleep. He didn’t want anything to do with me or Gizmo. It was sad. He’s over his depression and we have fun playing all day long.

Rob’s gonna be back on Saturday now, not Sunday. I’m very happy about that. I went out and got a couple of fun games for the Wii. Acme Arsenal, Super Mario Galaxy and The Simpson’s Game. All three are a lot of fun. I played the Simpson’s for like 3 hours last night and it’s really hard. I HATE jumping sequences in games. It takes me forever to figure them out. Acme Arsenal is really fun, too. I’ve only played it for about an hour, but so far, I really like it. There are 3 levels. Easy, Normal and Hard. I started on the Normal level, but it was too hard for me. Easy is just about right for me. I don’t play a lot of console games, so they are very challenging to me. I want to finish Sims Castaway, but I can’t find the box to it 😦

Well, I guess I better get going. I need to clean this house and stuff. Talk to you soon!

Not Nothing-ness


Well, today turned out to be a bit more interesting than I had expected! First of all, I went into work and even though all my leads didn’t pan out, there is always tomorrow…and hopefully I will get some more news. And if I don’t, that’s not my fault because I totally left all of the information and if she wants to do something about it to make it better, she’ll call me!

Then, Chris called and said, “You still want to go to the PX?” So he and I headed on over there. He hurt his back on New Years lifting his baby and he was in the hospital for like a week. He said he’s getting better, but it’s still easier with someone to help him out with Anthony. I love that kid anyway. I love the hugs I get from him! Anyway, I got my cable bill paid, got some Mentos and had a nice conversation with Wanda, the clerk at the shoppette. She’s such a wonderful lady. I know she has to be blessed. I didn’t ask her, but I know that she’s in pain and I usually try to ask how’s she feeling when I see her. She and I had a nice conversation about arts and crafts. She likes to needle point. I don’t like it. I can cross-stitch if it is printed, but not counted cross-stitch. I don’t have the patience for that. Anyway, where I was going with this is, even though she’s in a lot of pain, she’s still got this contagious smile and just this happy-go-lucky attitude. I’m really glad they hired her. They couldn’t have hired a better person!

Then, I came home and watched American Idol and that was fun. I was crocheting the whole time. I don’t have to have my eyes glued on it to enjoy or cringe when I watch it. And after a while, I decided to call Talia, assuming that she was watching it and she wasn’t! SURPRISE! We got to talking and I sort of gave away part of her Christmas gift (I don’t like surprises! and thankfully, she doesn’t read my blogs…so) I got her this great Barbie doll. She asked for one and I got it for her. It’s the Top Model on and she’s so pretty. I don’t have a Barbie, so we can’t play together 😦 The one I like is the Christmas 2007 collector’s edition and you’re really not supposed to take those out of the boxes. I suspect that if Talia and I played Barbies one day, I would take her out of the box (no, I don’t have it, I want it!)

Then, after a while I started crocheting again and I ran out of yarn. I knew that I would because I had only bought 3 skeims of yarn when we were home. I used the money that Mom and Dad Farrell gave me to buy some crochet hooks and yarn. Well, even though, technically speaking, the project isn’t done, I’m done crocheting it. It’s a tiny blanket that’s just Casey’s size. I didn’t like how it turned out anyway. There were several mistakes that I didn’t pull out because I don’t know why…laziness I guess.

So, as you can see, my dog’s tiny blanket is done. Isn’t it cute?

Nothing-ness

I was thinking that today is nothing. A blip. Boring. I’ve had several cups of coffee and I’m a bit shaky. Things seem to be going well, but at the same time dull. I feel like playing Sims, but at the same time, I feel like doing absolutely nothing. I’ve tried to make some calls for work and there was nothing. I came home and it’s empty, save my animals, but they say nothing to me. No, I’m not feeling depressed. I’m just feeling nothing. Blah, as it were. I guess I could get back to my blanket, but I think I screwed it up. Good thing I’m doing a practice one for myself. There are two ladies that are expecting, whom I consider to be good friends, and I’d like to be able to make them baby blankets. It’s kind of sad because there are three other ladies that I consider to be good friends with as well and I didn’t crochet anything for them when they had their babies…I’ve done a lot for them anyway. I found some great baby clothes! Anyway, yaddy ya-da.

I can’t think of anything else to write about right now. Maybe something interesting will happen. I don’t expect it, though. Oh well.

Crafty

Well, I guess I’m becoming a little craft these days. I made Rob a scarf and now I’m making a blanket. This is the scarf that I made this weekend. I’m about 1/3 of the way done with a lapghan using the same colors. It’s all I have. I’m having fun doing it and it’s actually going pretty quickly. I can’t believe it! It’s 12:45 and though I’m a little sleepy, I’m not as sleepy as I was yesterday. I thought I’d try to get to bed at 10 or 11, but that didn’t happen. I have to go into work for a couple of hours tomorrow. I don’t mind going into work, but there really isn’t a whole lot I can do. Things are so quiet around here. With the base closure, there are so many things that normally would happen, but aren’t because there simply isn’t the people here to support the services. As it is, they are decreasing hours for almost everything that we use. The PX and Commissary are now closed on Mondays starting the first of February. That’s the main thing, but also our restaurants are also closing early and opening later. It’s a pretty sad state of things around here. I have tried to get people to hang out with me downtown, but no one’s interested in doing that. The bowling center is now closed on Sundays and Mondays and that’s something that I would do more of if I could.
I found out last week that the last day that the medical clinic will lock its doors on July 15. That really doesn’t make much of a difference to me since we’ll probably be in K-Town by then…but it just makes this base closure that much more real.
Speaking of moving, this will be the 8th time that Rob and I have moved in 3.5 years and I’m tired! This is actually fewer times than it was with my ex-husband. We moved every 5 months and my poor dad usually got stuck helping us. He’s even helped Rob and I when we lived in El Paso. He and Momma-Paula brought a U-Haul trailer full of my crap with them when they came to visit us. We got Mom’s old kitchen table and that was really neat! I really love the table. It doesn’t really fit well in this house because it’s round and most of the tables we see in apartments like this are the long rectangular tables. I think we actually need to get more furniture, but I think we’re gonna wait until we move again before we have anymore major purchases. I want to get a Lazy Boy chair and a love seat. I’m sure Rob won’t mind, but I guess it’s going to really hinge on the house/apartment that we end up with in K-Town. If it isn’t possible to get new furniture, then I guess we’ll get some stuff when we move back to the states in 2009. I’m really looking forward to moving back the US. Who knows where we’ll be stationed, but maybe Rob will get selected for a West Point assignment. If he does, then we’ll go to New York. It’s like an hour north of New York City. I’m psyched about that because I would L.O.V.E. to go to school at CUNY.
When I was in high school, it was my dream to go to NYU. I would have never been able to go there since it is a private university and the tuition is like $20,000 a semester and I never had good enough grades to get in anyway. I know that I can get into CUNY. A history prof of mine told me about it. I always thought there was just SUNY which is upstate, but then he told me about CUNY. When Rob told me that we might have the possibility of going to NY, I was so excited. He asked where I thought I would like to go back to school at. Boy, was that an easy question to answer. He was like, “Thought about it much?” LOL.
Anyway, it’s pretty late. I’ve rambled much too much. Have a great day and thanks for reading!
TTFN!

A Boring day

Well, it’s official. I’ve set a quit date. It’s going to be Jan 25th. I was thinking that it should be the 21st, but Rob will still be in the field and it would be nice to have him here to help support me. I figured that if I quit the Friday before he came home, the worst of my withdrawals will be over with and it will be much more bearable for Rob.

Rob went to the range and qualified today, but he was disappointed because everything seemed to be going well and then his weapon started messing up. He ended up having to take it in to the Arms Room to have it looked at. He said that it helped, but that it was still acting up even after all that. He was a “First-Time-Go” which just means that he passed! He said that he was one shy of making Expert. If you know my husband, you know he’s a bit of a perfectionist (even though he’ll deny it!)
I’ve got insomnia so bad that I haven’t really slept in three days. Okay, that’s not completely true, I have slept…little cat naps that last no more than 3 hours. I don’t know why, though. Nothing’s changed here and as for Rob being gone, it doesn’t really bother me all that much. I guess I can still blame it on jet lag. I don’t know why I’d still have a problem with it though. It is so much easier going the other way than it is to come this way in terms of the jet lag. Though, I am feeling pretty tired this evening. I went over to a friend’s house and played PS2 and a couple of other games this evening. I had a beer and maybe that’s all I needed to have to make me a little sleepy. I want to go take a warm bath with some of the new bubble bath that I got from my Mom and Dad for Christmas this year. It’s yummy. It’s the new Temptation line from Bath and Body Works. I think I’ll try the Twisted Peppermint today. I sure do LOVE the Chocolate Mint stuff that I had. It smells good enough to eat, but I wouldn’t DARE! I liked using it as a soap and shampoo, but wasn’t impressed by its bubbles. They were gone in five minutes.

Well, nothing else to talk about right now. Have a great day and thanks for reading 🙂

The funniest thing…

Casey and I were sitting here watching America’s Funniest Videos and they did a sequence on sneezing. This one video showed a lady with her dog and she said, “sit” and it got Casey’s attention. Then, the lady fake sneezed and the dog went to get her a tissue. Casey ran to the TV and circled around and looked up and watched it for a minute. Then, he comes over to me and sneezed like four times! It was freaking hilarious! I said to him, “What? Now you think I’m gonna get you a tissue?” He tilted his head and then headed to the door so I would let him out!

The funniest thing about what I said to him was that Casey likes to EAT my tissues. If they are within his reach, he will chow down on them!

I’ll leave you with that YUMMY thought!

Are you looking for the photo album?

If you are looking for the Farrell Photo Album, check out the link on the right. Newly updated: Farrell Family Reunion at the pizza parlor. Contact me if you want the photobucket address and password to access the original files. 🙂

I am currently working on the Toledo Zoo Lights pictures and finishing up on the New Year’s Eve photos.

Okay, no new updates for now. Thanks for reading 🙂