It’s too much! Stop! Wait a minute! Let me take it one piece at a time!
We got an email today. Rob’s been accepted into a functional area. It’s Information Operations. Very exciting opportunity! He’ll start off at Ft. Leavenworth, Kansas for a few months and then go somewhere else…where that somewhere else is–is still very much up in the air!
I’m all jittery and stuff–and not from all the coffee that I’ve drank today, either–but because there was just so much information that I’m having a difficult time trying to sort it out in my mind. Just like everything, it needs to be processed…and put into the correct compartments.
Isn’t that weird? I compartmentalize my life. I think a lot of military spouse’s do that. I think we have to. With all the information that I got today, I seriously don’t know how long it will be for me to finally be able to understand the whole thing. Seriously, I don’t know if it’s good news or bad news. It’s news. We’ll leave it at that for now. I can’t say more because I don’t know more…though I wish I did. Do I really need more information? I can’t process what I know NOW–would I do better with MORE? Maybe, perhaps…probably. At least there’d be more certainty.
This is not what I was expecting, that’s for sure…okay, it was similar to what I had expected, but it throws new, uncertain possibilities into the whole works. I want to go back to school, but I can’t even really start thinking about that until I have some sort of idea where it is that we’re going to be stationed. I spent hours upon hours researching schools, areas, apartments that allow dogs–animals in general (I have 3–tough to find a place that allows them is not easy), employment, second bachelor’s degree over a master’s degree. All of this stuff that I’ve spent the last few months deciding has all just been thrown out the window because now there is this uncertainty that we’re facing and I just want to go back to where it was easy. Where decisions had been made and it was clearer as to which path I was going to be on.
As I said in my previous post, staying flexible while being married to the military is the key to success. I do believe it, just some sense of order in this chaos they call the military would be helpful. So, now, I will take my outdated list of places of where we could possibly be stationed (and it’s a long list) and tell my husband 3 places that I’d like to live for the next 2-5 years. At least it’s a start, I suppose.
That’s one thing I really commend my husband about. He always takes into consideration my options. And basically, he’ll go wherever! For that I’m grateful. I seriously doubt that I could have found someone so understanding about the military situation that he takes me into consideration when it comes to moving. He’s so great that way.
Sorry, does this post seem disconnected? I’m disconnected. I’m all over the place right now. Don’t worry…I’m alright. Sometimes it’s good to just write out the thoughts. It helps me sometimes–just to sort it out. So if this post didn’t really make a whole lot of sense to you, don’t worry, it’ll become clearer as time goes on…and we’ll keep you updated.
Thanks for reading.